Blessed

Wow...it is awesome to see the way that God works.  He works all hings out for good.  I keep going back to this verse.  Was Mother's Day a challenge? Yes.  But I was blessed by it.  Sunday we went to church.  We were a few minutes late but I guess hey did baby dedications first and we missed them.  Thanking the Lord for working our lateness into something good.  Pastor had a fabulous message.  We have been learning about prayer and different prayers.  Sunday he spoke about Hannah's prayer.  For those of you who are unfamiliar with Hannah.  Hannah was barren for years.  Unable to have children, her husband took another wife (children were needed o help farm and such).  His new wife gave him children and this new wife would rub it in Hannah's face that she could not have children.  Hannah, as you can imagine, was very sad and distraught about being barren.  She prayed that the Lord would open her womb and she owed that if she was blessed with a child she would dedicate him to the Lord.  Pastor spoke of the pain that moms, women wanting to be moms and women who can't have children go through.  He made some very powerful points that I needed to hear. "No baby is enough. No spouse is enough.  God is enough."  We have to live that.  We also have to pray that His will be done...why?  Because that always gets a yes.  It was his will that DH and I go through the rial of losing our first child to a "fluke"  and our second to who knows? His plan is bigger than ours.  Pastor talked about how so many people and especially moms have to go through some very hard trials to develop a strong relationship and prayer life with God.  Hannah's prayer was for her son to grow in a life dedicated to serving the Lord.  I remember praying while pregnant with Natalie that we would raise our child to love the Lord and life a life for him.  I still pray that for our children that we can demonstrate God's love and raise them in a way that would be pleasing to the Lord.  My grandma said to me on Sunday, "you should have been a mom today"  I said, "I am a mom"  She said, "yes, but you should have a baby in your arms and that us bothered me today"  Bless her heart...We all got teary and I told her it was ok.  This journey is not all flowers and unicorns.  There are times where DH is still figuring out the thing/events that spark me being upset.  My advice to couples going through these tough times is to always communicate your feelings.  When I don't I sometimes expect him to us know, sometimes he does but it isn't fair to assume he will.  When I don't communicate my feelings there are misunderstandings and hurt feelings.  Communicate!  When we do we can comfort each other.  He really has been a rockstar throughout this whole thing.  I have been so blessed...